Sucked in by Maelstroms of Life: Wind-surfing with turbo help engines through Schylla and Charybdis
I had an aspiration to kick off some new habits in life when I introduced XotD's [fillinthebrackets] of the Day - as a way to rutinize Daily Blogging.
A friend of mine had a message, reconstructed as I took it (not remembering the exact words, but the way I received and transformed it making it "mine") - "better to keep a habit to write when you can deliver quality - producing quantity times one every day can override the quality". Maybe I listened to hard to him, maybe the computer I use is to slow and with a (com)pressed time/life situation not "having" time/space (www.flybook.biz - the first Latte Computer generation anno 2005 with child's diseases and slow processor), maybe something else came in-between this habitulization attempt and my life.
More than anything - I take responsibility for my own action.
And thus, the third is to "blame".
Or a cause found.
It is within. If the spirit has no room, if your expected energy level of a day is not enough, if you can't do it systematically, don't do it. It is within - i. e. within your skin.
So - I prioritized returning to the Dojo, full fledged, all out, to get my posture up once and for all. In January, www.aikidodojo.nu, where last time Thursday was me - and only Dan Graders black belts...
In retrospect, my road towards 5 kyu Iwama Ryu May 22, 2008, seemed and seems to be the companion to Get the Balance Right (thanks Depeche Mode for another association in the Soundtrack of Life).
And in short - that was the way I managed to do what is concentrated and summarized in the Subject Line. The full story behind that Subject Line goes beyond 500 words, so I cannot keep that to a blog that I intend to have for shorter personal notes, a bit transparent, a bit quirky, a bit sublime, a bit subtile, and very much "me" - where I am a result of memory of past and contemporary history filled with social constructions. And this, implicitly, marks my step into the return of the XotD. Beginning slowly with at least one of the three suggested X-es at every day/time of posting.
Sunday morning this time. But I think maybe a morning and an evening posting makes two the option. Word. Music. Where I see the ID tag storytelling to start when I actually have some readers more than now - readers who actually care - since they refer to some attempt to grasp my "identity" to the level I can communicate it and actually be somewhat understood.
It's hard to be an "authentic anomaly" in a life within a society with so many man-made maelstroms I have to avoid in order to survive all levels. And, survival is not enough. I want to live.
Fully.
Done so far. Doing it all the time. And intend to Do for a long time to come.
Until my mission this time is over. 2050+ at least. Preferrably beyond 2066 - I actually want to be over hundred years old. Which places mind/spirit/body health and balance in focus and center of your life and behavior.
I better keep that twice-a-week Aikido training to sustain it in order to fulfil that aspiration and intention :).
And maybe a daily word, a song and an explanation of my identity tags when the space and room is there.
Every day actions and every week routines are the things affecting our individual and collective life streams - you and togetherness of we - sustained. Take care of the small things (especially babies :), and you will see and experience the biggest of all, Larger than Life.
Love.
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